This section of our website is an offering to The Endless One, a reference to Sri Bhagawan Nityananda of Ganeshpuri, the legendary 20th century sage to devotees and disciples all across the world. This offering is a labor of endless love, a collaboration between Acharya Kedar and Sri GopalKrishna Shenoy, trustee of Bhagawan Nityananda's Kanhangad ashram and a trustee of the Swami Nityananda Ashram Public Trust. It is through GopalKrishna's dedicated effort, that we bring you stories, insights and revelations from four generations of disciples of Bhagawan Nityananda.

In the Puranas it is said that one can quickly attain the spiritual merit necessary to make the journey to Liberation by worshipping and serving the disciples of Lord Shiva. In other traditions, those who want to merge with Lord Rama, worship his loving devotee Hanuman. Those who want to realize Krishna, serve the Gopis, Lord Krishna's devoted consort.

Following in the footsteps of this great Bhakti tradition, we choose to honor ALL of those disciples, successors and Gurus whose lives have been transformed through the Love and Grace of The Endless One, Sri Bhagawan Nityananda of Ganeshpuri.

Whole-Hearted Devotion for and Surrender to The Guru.

I am often asked why a Guru is necessary. Some people who come to our programs have expressed concerns about the fact that there are pictures of my Gurudev and the other Siddhas of my lineage hanging on the walls of our Meditation Hall. People want to know why I worship my Gurudev and why we encourage worship of the Siddhas. There are those who believe that one should only worship the formless God. So, we have this question "Why?" And it is a very good question which the Disciple must ask.

To be clear, the limitation of your ego is the only thing standing between you and God, the only thing that prevents you from attaining Liberation or God-Realization.

The only reason to take a Guru is to destroy the limitation of the ego. This ego cannot be destroyed by attempting to worship that which you cannot see or experience through your senses since, in order for the ego to be purified, the senses must also be purified.

Since the function of your senses is to attach themselves to objects of form (people, places and things), the senses and the ego can only be purified by becoming attached to that which will destroy their limitation in the fire of Yoga. This must be an object with agency, an object with the power to bestow God's Grace. That object is the Guru who is a Siddha.

If you constantly remember that the Guru is not the physical body, but the Grace-bestowing power of God that is being transmitted through the Acharya; and if you worship the Master remembering this, taking the form of the Guru inside your being in meditation, or meditating on the Acharya's Guru or any of the saints of the Guru's lineage, you will begin to experience a wonderful and powerful purification and opening of your heart.

This leads to a burning Devotion to and Love for the Guru, which leads to Surrender of the impure ego. Once this surrender is complete, you still have an ego, but it is a purified ego which proclaims, "I am Shiva, I am Shakti, I am the Absolute, I am Pure, I am Worthy, I am Perfect." You begin to bask in your own Natural, Free State of Divine, Unconditional Love.

That Love has the power to perform miracles and it will transform your entire being and also, over time, heal all your latent illnesses. This Love comes from the Grace-bestowing power of the Guru and your own self-effort at daily spiritual practice. It is your own Grace, known as Disciple's Grace, that is the foundation for this relationship between Acharya and Disciple. Your Grace is the most important element. Without it, the Master cannot do his work.

As your own sadhana progresses into the advanced stages, your need for the physical form of the Guru diminishes and the physical form of the Acharya becomes less important. Your Reverence and Devotion remain, always. But your own Shiva Consciousness converts the form of the Acharya into the formless Absolute, at the time that Lord Shiva comes looking for you. In the end, the Disciple becomes the Guru. However, only he/she who obeys can command.

Now, there are those who will say, "But inspiration comes from within, not from anyone outside." In response to this, I can tell you from my own experience that, yes, this is true. However, Divine inspiration comes from within after all that destroys that pure inspiration (Truth) of the heart is removed.

Bhagawan Nityananda says, "The Heart is the hub of all sacred places. Go there and roam." In order to accomplish this, your heart first needs to be purified of all the false impressions and dirt deposited there by the impure ego. For this you need a Guru.

For this reason, we study the lives of great disciples like Shaligram Swami and Keshav Apte, so that we can imbibe their great love and devotion for Gurudev Nityananda Bhagawan and learn of the perfect worship that causes God to come looking for us.

Acharya Kedar

An Offering By Gopalkrishna Shenoy

In late 1990s I was going through a very difficult phase in my life. Those days were extremely painful, as I was facing trouble on all fronts. Everything seemed to be going wrong. My faith in Bhagwan Nityananda was shaken to the point where I asked myself, "Who is false, Bhagwan or myself?" My heart kept on confirming that none were false, but my mind was playing its own games.

It was Tripuri Purnima (this is the second to last full moon day of the calendar year, the day Guru Nanak was born, and it is a very auspicious day to offer prayers to Lord Shiva). On this day, by chance I wound up at the Mahul Ashram, which is the ashram Shaligram Swami built and dedicated to Bhagawan Nityananda. I arrived there at about 7 pm. There is a Puja there to Bhagawan Nityananda and another to Shaligram Swami. I stood in front of the Puja (alter) to Bhagawan Nityananda looking at his picture, and I prayed for his love. Next I stood in front of Shaligram Swami’s Puja and called out to him with great love and reverence saying, "When I was small I used to sit on your lap and you bestowed great love on me. It was you who placed a basket of offerings on my head when you celebrated Viswaarpan Day. If you love me and your Guru is true, then prove it to me."

As soon as I said this a white light, as white as you see the light emitting from a welding rod, poured out from Bhagawan’s photo. The light was soothing and it filled the entire hall. It was a wonderful feeling. For several minutes I was suspended in this state. In that same week (on November 30th) they celebrated Bhagwan Nityananda's birthday. I attended that ceremony. Just after the Arati, again the hall was full of the white light. I prayed, "If you love me and if it is true that I have lived all my life in search of you then guide me. I was six when you took Mahasamadhi and could not understand how to find my way to reach you. if it is true that my father ever loved you and my mother ever loved you then guide me, my dear Deva. In their name, in the name of my Grandfather Devrai Pai and my uncle, Sitaram, I make this request."

As I was leaving the Ashram, there was a table setup and somebody was selling books. I browsed through some of them and chose a book written by Mrs. Ujwal Kunte entitled Anubhuthimala. I had 50 rupees and some coins in my pocket. I paid the 50 rupees for the book and boarded a bus to Kurla Station. The coins were just enough to go home by bus. On the bus, I sat in the upper deck on the front seat, facing the window so that I would not be disturbed. There I began to read the book. It was in Marathi, a language in which I was poor. But in that journey of 40 minutes to my home from Mahul, I was also undertaking an eternal inner journey. Space within space opened up for me and my prayers were answered by Shaligram Swami.

Mrs. Ujwal Kunte whom, out of respect, I called Ayee (mother), is a disciple of Keshav Apte, who was a disciple of Shaligram Swami. There has been no record available on the life and teachings of Shaligram Swami. In her book Om Keshawaya Namo, Mrs. Ujwal Kunte gives a brief glimpse of the life of Shaligram Swami and presents the teachings of Keshav Apte, his chief disciple. Keshav was lovingly called Appa. This book is an account of how a disciple truly serves the Master. I am sharing some of the information from this book here because it brought a transformation to my life. This experience is unique and acts as a guide in our journey of GuruKripa Yoga. There is wonderful sangam in the confluence of the Guru, his direct disciple and the disciple of the disciple; in the form of Bhagawan Nityananda, Shaligram Swami and Keshav Apte.

Shaligram Swami

Shaligram Swami took the vow of monkhood in the Narayana Ashram in South India. At that time, he was named Dayanand Saraswati. After he met Bhagawan Nityananda, he was renamed as Shaligram Swami. The shaligram is a dark black oval-shaped pebble found on the banks of river Ganges. The shaligram stone is considered to be infused with the power of Lord Shiva and Lord Vishnu. Shaligrams are often offered in temples where they are placed on the Puja. Even if there is statue of a deity in the temple, it is the shaligram which is said to attract the Shakti of Shiva and Vishnu to that place. For this reason, people have come to worship the shaligram stone. Swamiji once said, "The name Shaligram is not my surname, it is a responsibility bestowed on me by Bhagawan Nityananda. The Shakti of Lord Shiva and Lord Vishnu fuse in Shaligram."

The Sign

Through your accrued spiritual merit and your love for God, you cross paths with your Acharya. This happens when the time is right, and without any struggle. If you love God intensely and your yearning is true, the Guru will definitely come. Keshav Apte was Shaligram Swami's chief disciple. He was lovingly known as Appa. From his childhood, Appa used to have dreams in which he saw a huge bright pillar inside his being. This pillar used to merge in the Ajna Chakra between his eyebrows. He had been told that the day he meets his Guru, that dream would stop. So, he was now restless to meet his Guru.

One day, Appa decided to visit Shaligram Swami at his Mahul Ashram in Mumbai. As he was climbing the stairs he heard the beautiful voice of Swamiji saying, "Keshav, please come. Nityananda, you and I have been associated for the past five lives. Now, do not again have a tussle with me." Now, Keshav had never met Swamiji but Swamiji welcomed him by his name. Appa entered the room and first bowed to the photo of Bhagawan Nityananda. Then he placed his forehead at the feet of Shaligram Swami and said silently to himself, "From today I shall call you my God. You are my Atmaram. Not to question! I shall ever remain in obedience to you. What is desired by You is acceptable to me. Thy Will be done." He said this silently in his heart. On that night that Appa met Shaligram Swami, his dream of the huge bright pillar stopped. Appa realized that he had met the his Guru.

Throughout his years as Shaligram Swami's disciple, most times Appa spoke to Swamiji inwardly, through his heart. And Swamiji, knowing what was in Appa's heart would then answer him and fulfill his prayers. This is how Keshav Apte met and served his Guru, Shaligram Swami. Their relationship occurred by the Grace of Bhagawan Nityananda. Appa set a perfect example of Ananya Sharanam, total and unconditional surrender to the Master.

Once you hold on to the feet of your Acharya, the Master is connected to you eternally. This is the perfect relationship. The Acharya will never let you go or let you down. Your Devotion and Surrender is the guarantee.

Encounters With Shaligram Swami

The Oath

Under the direct order of Bhagawan Nityananda, Shaligram Swami had maintained an oath of silence (mauna vratha) for three years. By instruction of Baba, Swamiji was to complete this oath by breaking his silence at the feet of Bhagawan Nityananda in Ganeshpuri. He was to do this by uttering the name of Baba at his feet. On his journey to Ganeshpuri, Swamiji visited the Vajreshwari Temple to have darshan of the Devi. By chance, Keshav and a friend were standing at the foot of the hill on which the temple was located. They heard about this ceremony where Swamiji was to break his silence and they decided to attend it.

It was getting late and many for Shaligram Swami's devotees had gathered in anticipation of his arrival. Soon a vehicle came to a stop near the steps leading up to the temple. Swamiji stepped out of the car. His hair and beard were long. He stood about five feet tall with a wheat-colored complexion and a very divine face. He stared at Appa and beckoned him. When Appa went by his side, Swamiji arranged for their photographs to be taken together. Shaligram Swami then insisted that Appa accompany him to Ganeshpuri for the ceremony.

The Lunch

Keshav Apte was living in Thane which is quite far from the Mahul ashram. One day while at the ashram, Shaligram Swami told Appa, "Keshav, tomorrow we are coming for lunch at your house." Keshav, although very poor, spared no effort and expense to prepare the lunch. The next day, it was already noon and there was no sign of Swamiji. Appa then realized that he had forgotten to give his address to Swamiji and no one in the ashram knew where he lived. He decided he better go to the ashram to get Swamiji. As he stepped out of his house, he found Shaligram Swami standing in front of his door!

Holy Basil Leaves

During festivals devotees used to bring garlands of flowers for Bhagawan Nityananda. Heaps of flowers used to collect around his chair and at his feet. One day Appa brought a garland for Baba made from basil leaves. When Keshav offered this garland to Baba, Shaligram Swami said, "Keshav. Heaps of flower garlands are offered to Bhagawan, but nobody offers basil leaves. Basil leaves are holy. They represent true love. You indeed truly love him."

Appa said "Tulsi leaves (basil leaves) represent true love. In the garden of your heart sow the seeds of the basil plant and pour water of love on it. Love shall make it grow into a beautiful plant with bright tender leaves and seeds. It shall give off a refreshing aroma which shall bring peace and make your mind calm. Offer these leaves, grown out of your love, at the feet of God."

Desireless offerings

Appa was a perfect disciple. He cultivated unconditional love for his Guru. He only wanted what his Acharya had to give him, the ultimate state of Liberation. Event though Appa was poor and deprived in every respect, he desired nothing else. He knew that whatever he really needed, his Gurudev would provide. In this way, Appa became the fountainhead of Unconditional, Divine Love. He remained true to his word, "Thy Will be done."

In India, it is customary that people make offerings to saints and temples. This practice is called Dakshina. When done as an offering of Love for God and the Acharya, without any other motive or desire, Dakshina is a spiritual practice that is its own reward. It cultivates Devotion which attracts God's Grace. Unfortunately, there are those who don't understand this and, instead, use Dakshina as a means to bargain with God for the fulfillment of their own long list of personal desires.

On November 30th of every year, the Mahul Ashram, established by Shaligram Swami in honor of Bhagawan Nityananda, hosts a celebration of Nityananda Baba’s birthday. This practice was started by Shaligram Swami 58 years ago. During this celebration many disciples make offerings in the form of bags of rice, cereal, sweets, etc. Swamiji used to hold a Bhandhara on that day and the whole village used to come and partake of the blessed food.

Shaligram considered Bhagawan Nityananda to be his Lord Rama and he considered himself to be Lord Hanuman (Lord Rama's devoted disciple). On every 30th of November Lord Rama (in form of a Murti of Bhagawan Nityananda) goes to the Hanuman temple at Mahul on foot. Mr. Madhav Hegde describes this event as an occasion where Lord Rama, in the form of Bade Baba, visits his disciple Shaligram (as Hanuman). It is a rare example of God visiting His devotee. The chief deity of Mahul village is Lord Hanuman and there is a small temple dedicated to him at the entrance of the village. People carry the Guru's padukas (sandals) on their heads in the morning. In a grand procession, while singing bhajans (devotional somgs), they take them from the Mahul ashram to the Hanuman temple. In the temple the silver padukas are received and worshipped.

In the evening Lord Hanuman (in the form of a Murti of Shaligram Swami) takes his Guru Nityananda back to the ashram in great pomp and gaiety. Both Murtis are placed on a palanquin which is accompanied by music and dancing people. Fire crackers are set off on the way as the procession winds its way in the small lanes of the village. The streets and homes are decorated with colorful lights. At each house, Bhagawan is received and Arathi (waving of lights) is performed. People are dressed in their best clothes and there is celebration in every house. The village thus takes on a festive look. The only known place where the birthday of Bhagawan Nityananda is celebrated is at Mahul.

Shaligram Swami never ate any of the Bhandhara food from this celebration. Appa was hurt to know that Swamiji did not eat from the offerings of food brought to him for the Bhandhara. During one such celebration, in his heart Appa was saying, "I wish you too would eat today." When most of the devotees left and Appa went to greet Swamiji, Swamiji told his attendant, "Jaghannath. Please lay two plates for Prasad." From one of the plates Swamiji filled his mouth full of food. He then said to Appa playfully, "Come on. Start eating." Appa was happy that Shaligram Swami heard what he had uttered in his heart.

After they finished the meal, Swamiji said, "One who brings fulfillment (siddhi) to desire (sankalpa) is God. Some people visit me and they make offerings simply to fulfill of their own desires. So many desires, are made in their offerings to me. When it is the right time, I can only fulfill those desires which are good and in their best interest. But if I eat from the offerings of those people, I am obligated to deliver their every desire immediately. It is for this reason that I avoid partaking in any of the their offerings. Please understand that if you make an offering without any expectation, I will very gladly eat any day, any time. That’s my promise." From that day on, Appa used to carry a small food box with a meal for Swamiji. He did not have any personal desire attached to this offering of food. He just wanted Swamiji to get nourishment. Appa quietly left the food for Shaligram Swami and Swamiji used to immediately open the box and eat happily.

Now, observing this, one of Appa’s close relatives told Appa, "Tomorrow I will bring a food box for Swamiji." Appa knew that his relative was doing this simply because he wanted blessings for a new car. Even so, he kept quiet. When the man placed the food box in Swamiji’s hands, Shaligram Swami said, "So, you desire a car?" After saying this, Swamiji immediately distributed the food brought by this man to others, without himself eating it.

Shaligram Swami was completely attuned to the needs of his disciples and was able to discern their needs without them being voiced. For example, Keshav Apte loved mangos. Every year he used to offer the first mango of the season to Shaligram Swami. He would not eat mangos unless Swamiji ate the mango first. If Swamiji didn't eat the mango, Appa refused to eat mangos for the entire season. During one particular mango season, Appa was not able to visit the Mahul Ashram to offer the first mango to Swamiji. So, Appa decided not to eat any mangos that season. Shaligram Swami then sent a message to him. "Inform Appa that I have eaten mangos and now he can eat too." Swamiji granted Appa's wish. In this way, their hearts were always connected.

The Coin

If your only desire is to merge with God, the sincerity of your desire will be tested. This test sometimes manifests through the temptation to acquire objects that you don't really need, or to acquire objects that will tempt you to forget God. If, under the force of temptation, you can still say "I love and desire nothing but you, my Lord," then you are His, now and forever. This is what Lord Krishna has said. It is also what Jesus Christ prayed for.

Appa was repeatedly tested by Shaligram Swami. He always got through his tests with flying colors. Even though Appa was very poor and had nothing, he desired nothing but God. He belonged to God and God belonged to him.

In one particular year, a wealthy devotee had promised to pay for the rice needed for the Bhandara on Bhagawan Nityananda's birthday celebration. As the 30th of November approached, there was no sign of the rice or that man and there was no money in the Ashram to make the purchase. Keshav asked Swamiji, "Should I go and ask that devotee to make good on his commitment?" Shaligram Swami answered, "No dear. It must be that he is not be in a position to bear the cost. We should never put anybody in such a predicament. Here. Take this coin and go to the grain market.* Buy the rice that we need for the festival."

Without even blinking, Appa put that coin in his pocket and left for the market. So strong was his faith in his Guru that it just did not occur to him how he was going to purchase some 700 kgs of rice with just one rupee coin! Once at the market, he gathered all that was needed and asked the total. The shopkeeper told him the total cost. Appa put his hand in his pocket and was not surprised to find that, with the coin, was the exact amount needed to pay for the rice. He loaded the bags of rice into a truck and returned to the Mahul Ashram. Bowing down to Swamiji, he gave the coin back. Swamiji said, "You are returning the coin!? Keshav, what’s the matter with you? Are you aware that if you keep this coin in your pocket, you will never have shortage of money in your whole life?" As usual, Appa replied silently in his heart, "I desire only You," and refused the coin.

*Bhatbazar is a frequented market near Majid Bunder in Mumbai.

Spotless

The mundane exchange between Guru and Disciple is often a metaphor and symbolic of a deeper meaning and message. Shaligram Swami wore the ochre cloths of a monk only once a year on a particular day. Otherwise he always wore a white cloth around his body, tied up in a knot at his neck. Once, Appa presented him with a soft white cloth. Swamiji said, "I do not like it if there is any spot on it. You will always have to present me with a spotless one." There is a great meaning behind this statement. It meant that Appa’s Love for Swamiji should be without taint. His Love should be completely pure and unconditional.

Grace and Blessings

One day a lady visited Mahul Ashram and fell at the feet of Shaligram Swami. She wept for a long time and expressed all her pain and suffering to Swamiji. She went on for a good while. Shaligram Swami kept quiet and said nothing to give her any comfort. At one point Appa was feeling that Swamiji should show the woman some concern by speaking some words of comfort to her. No sooner had this thought flashed into his mind than Swamiji said, "Nobody leaves this place empty-handed Keshav. Within the next two days, she shall return to confirm that her difficulties have been overcome and you shall witness this." It happened exactly as Shaligram Swami said it would.

Golden Sandals

Shaligram Swami derived the power to serve his disciples from his own Guru, Sri Bhagawan Nityananda of Ganeshpuri. Swamiji's love for Bade Baba (Bhagawan) was unparalleled and unconditional.

One day a devotee visited the ashram and presented Shaligram Swami with forty-four thousand rupees. Swamiji called a goldsmith and used the money to have a silver alter designed with all items needed for daily Puja. He also purchased gems and a pair of diamond-studded golden sandals. Swamiji placed the sandals in a bag and left for Bhagawan Nityananda's Ganeshpuri ashram. When he arrived at the ashram, he placed the golden sandals in front of Bhagawan Nityananda and stood aside in reverence. Bhagawan immediately put his feet in the sandals and Shaligram Swami held a beautiful umbrella over Bade Baba’s head, the way one holds an umbrella over a king. After all, Bhagawan Nityananda was the King of kings. This was a most beautiful sight. It was witnessed by Appa and photographed by Suvarna. This event occurred 12 years after the annual birthday celebrations on November 30th began each year at the Mahul Ashram.

Even today, one can see this photo where Bade Baba sits like a King and Swamiji holds the umbrella with his smiling face and eyes filled with love and satisfaction. This was indeed a rare honor. This photo, along with the photo taken with Shaligram Swami bowing to Bhagawan Nityananda on the day he broke his silence in Bhagawan's presence; When these photos are placed in one's home, they attract the Grace-bestowing power of Bhagawan Nityananda and Shaligram Swami.

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